lost in the past of my future

[ASHLYNN STORM JOSEPH]

just because i'm hurting, doesn't mean i'm hurt
DOESN'T MEAN I DIDN'T GET WHAT I DESERVED

Ashlynn had never been very religious. She'd pray to god when she was gambling - but that was about it, and she wasn't really sure if that counted. Her family though, they were very religious. They'd drag her to the church every Sunday, and force her to sit there. She even went to church camp. It wasn't until she was eight that she was allowed to not go - that was, after locking herself in her room for ten Sundays straight until they finally agreed she wouldn't have to go to church or camp. After all, she was old enough to decide. But her parents and sister went to church every Sunday, sometimes went to confession, while she didn't.

No, Ash had never been very religious for the majority of her life. Ever since she'd died (or in more correct terms, killed herself,) she'd been attending church every Sunday and staying there long after the session ended as the living passed by without even giving a second chance to the dead girl - not being able to see her, of course.

Ash stared at the ceiling, not really seeing anything as she played with her bracelet. She was frustrated. She didn't understand why - Ash closed her eyes as she sighed, waving a piece of hair. It had been two months since she had killed herself - two months since she had written her confession of the murder of Jacob. They knew it hadn't been Maiya, so why hadn't she been let out yet? It was stupid. All the trials and checking over information - so Maiya had lied, but the lie she'd given was to put herself in jail! Even if she were to serve time for that, wasn't the two years she'd already served for something she hadn't done enough?

Ash sat there for a long time, as she went over again and again what she could remember of that night two years ago, the night that had landed her sister in jail and her where she was. She wasn't how sure she sat there, still as a statue. She usually tried to forget that time long ago, and be herself, as normal as she could. Only on the Sunday did she let herself think about it and become almost unrecognizable to her true nature.

Ash was unsure how long she sat there for but finally she ran a hand through her hair as she opened her eyes. She watched the setting sun through the window and once more began to fiddle with her bracelet as she thought of how she'd spent another day within the church. She looked down at her bracelet and flipped it over to reveal on the back engraved was the word Sisters.

Ash stared at that single cursive word as the sun went lower. Maiya had gone to jail for her, given up her life, so she could have one, and Ash couldn't even get her out of jail.

Tagged;; Open
Lyrics;; Lost by Coldplay
Word Count;; 500 (not my best)

[KRISTOPHER ZANE ESTRELLA]

maybe i need some rehab or maybe just need some sleep

i've got a sick obsession i'm seeing it in my dreams

Kristopher wasn’t a religious guy at all; oh no. He was probably a sin to all religions; after all he did like the same sex as well. Well maybe all religions weren’t that bad, but he was a sin to all the obsessive believers. He had seen a lot of obsessive believers over the past few years in other cities, they would protest against same sex marriages and all, but he was glad it would never work out. There was already a vast majority of people in the world who didn’t care if anyone got married to the same sex, and Kristopher liked that. Yes he liked girls mostly, but still, he was bisexual wasn’t he? So there was no problem for him.

Kristopher had no idea what really sparked his liking in boys, he had no idea how he begun to like them at all. When he had been forced to move to the boarding school, he didn’t really care. He made quite a lot of new friends, and even though there were no girls in that school, he managed to stay sane with the help of all his friends. One day he had walked in on his room mate kissing another guy, and at first Kristopher was disgusted by it’ actually no not really. He wasn’t disgusted; he was just more…surprised really. They were on a bed kissing and moaning against each other, and Kristopher’s second thought was that it was hot. What he was seeing then was fucking sexy, and no matter how much he tired to hide those feelings and urges down he knew he wanted to join them. But those thoughts came a few days later when he finally sat down and thought about it; not exactly right at that moment. He was a bit freaked out at himself when he realised that he got horny over boys, and he tried to keep it quiet.

It was his room mate, Lucas, who he told first about those urges. Lucas had laughed at him first, because he knew what those urges meant. Kristopher was a bit surprised when Lucas had told him that he ‘liked’ boys now. Surprisingly, to himself as well as the others in the school, Kristopher had taken the news pretty well, and in the first week he had managed to get himself a boyfriend as well. His name was James, and a really cute boy of that. Kristopher smirked to himself as he remembered James, oh what a strikingly beautiful smile he had as well those baby blue eyes of his. Those were the two main things that made Kristopher ask James out. It was also his personality, James was free, fun loving and caring and he was a truly good spirit. He always made others laugh with his jokes and his witty sense of humour and Kristopher felt an instant attraction to him. Kristopher knew that he was bisexual when his room mate’s sister came over. She was the exact definition of sexy and Kristopher lusted after her, and that was when he knew that he liked both genders, and he actually loved it.

Kristopher walked into the Church, not really knowing why; but he did. As he walked in, he saw a girl and for some reason she looked upset too. Now who would be upset in the House of God? He smirked at that and made his way towards her. Slowly sitting down next to her, Kristopher gave her a quick glance over before speaking. “What’s wrong buttercup?”


TAGGED// ASHLYNN
WORD COUNT// 589
LYRICS// YOUR LOVE IS MY DRUG - JAAAAYDEN (KE$HA)
NOTES// SORRY, I'M RECYCLING MY TEMPLATE COZ I CAN'T BE ASKED TO MAKE ANOTHER ONE.